mercoledì 21 ottobre 2009


I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.
I have a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. Worse yet, this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for enough years yet that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.
This totally sucks.
I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.
And hell, I think I've reached the point where I'm jealous of cult members. Those poor
deluded fuckers who shave their heads and dance around in public begging for
donations, or the heaven's gate suicide cult, at least they have a sense of purpose, of
belonging. They must have a sense of devotion for their beloved cult leaders.
Is there any way to have meaning in your life when you're disconnected from everyone?
I don't think so.

2 commenti:

Luis Filipe Gomes ha detto...

"You're a child of the Universe..."
It's a 70's song refrain. If I could remember accurately belongs to "Electric Light Orchestra".
Carl Sagan also said that we all are star dust. The same line of thinking was expressed by Native Americans who understood humankind as star children.
That means you are connected, just pay attention and believe giving is better than receiving. Don’t judge nobody, just try to love people as they are and give them some attention.

Scarlata ha detto...

Gostei muito da franqueza dele, revi em algumas coisas que li, coisas que penso e como ele gostava de acreditar nessas cenas místicas que te resolvem a vida...
O post dele: "Sorry, Jesus - I'm not impressed" é muito porreiro.

Eu não penso que a vida mete nojo e até sou feliz grande parte do meu tempo. Gostei de encontrar outra pessoa à qual a maior parte das pessoas não lhe dizem nada, sei lá, do tipo uff não sou a única! ;D